Have you ever tried to NOT express your opinion?
Welcome to my world.
So that was part of our assignment this week. Be the observer of your opinions and stop giving them. WHOA! What ISN’T my opinion? That’s an interesting question. Another good question is, if I am not my opinions and judgments, then who am I?
My husband and I have had some fun with this assignment. Practically everything out of his mouth is opinion. HAHAHAHAHA! So he walks around mumbling to himself…opinion, opinion, opinion. And I’m quick to point out when he’s giving it…isn’t that my job?
In MY head is the thought that I’M not opinionated. Well there’s a difference between being opinionated and expressing an opinion. I used to think that I should have strong opinions about things. That I was flawed that I didn’t. But that’s different than communicating what I think…my opinion. Isn’t everything ‘my opinion’? Doesn’t all that I say and think come from MY point of view?
When I give someone a compliment…”You look beautiful in that dress”, isn’t that my opinion?
But that is coming from my heart…and I am an expert of my heart. And if I am an expert of something is my opinion then relevant? So, if I am not my opinions and judgments, then who am I?
I get it…this is THE week. The week where we separate the girls from the women, the boys from the men, the weekend warriors from the Olympic athletes…you get the picture. This was a difficult week for me. Confession time! Early morning events pushed my morning routine around so I had to move my Master Key reading and 15 minute sit to before bed. My midday Greatest Salesman read ended up being an early evening read. I didn’t get in my daily exercise. The 15 minutes of drawing that I promised, didn’t happen. Sigh… And to top it all off, I dropped my iPhone this morning and it hit the one teeny tiny spot without protection and shattered the glass. It’s ALL jacked up!
Bigger sigh… Oh, and now the computer program I need to send out a meeting invitation is doing some weird shit. Our pets cost us over $1000 today. SherKhan, the cat, has a thyroid condition and now has to be on medication for the rest of her life. Exams for the dogs including vaccines, HeartGuard and Flea and Tick ‘poison’ and badda boom…$1000 bill.
It’s 6 pm on Friday and I’m just now writing this Blog. Oh crap, and I haven’t done my afternoon read yet. I haven’t even showered today and I need to be dressed in less than and hour for dinner with friends. Breathe…
What is it that Haanel says? “The Universal cannot express through you as long as you are busy with your plans, your own purposes; quiet the senses, seek inspiration, focus the mental activity on the within, dwell in the consciousness of your unity with Omnipotence.”
I’m not yet sure how to do that but I’m in it for the long haul…In the meantime I’m going to have wine and dinner with friends.
Yep, that’s me. Speaking to 4,000 fellow distributors in Hangzhou, China. Flown over in business first. Staying in 5 star hotels. Touring Hangzhou and Shanghai with our own personal guide and interpreter…a dream come true?
As I do my weekly readings as required for the Master Key Master Mind Alliance I reflect on the ‘thinking’ that got me to China. I’ve attended business conferences for the last 28 years. As I sat in the audience listening to the speakers on stage I would say to myself, “that’ll be me someday”. No date, and no more specifics than that. But there was certainly a feeling of desire, excitement and pride attached to the thought.
Then a couple of years ago, because of the longevity and legacy of our business (51 years), I was asked to speak to about 100 of our Chinese distributors at an annual conference here in the U.S. That was exciting, and then I remember thinking that it would be REALLY cool to be invited to speak in China! Again, no time frame and nothing more specific, but definitely that feeling of excitement and pride. So earlier this year, when I was asked if I wanted to speak in China, my thought was, “WOW, the universe has actually aligned with my thoughts”. Someday finally came. And to be honest, it was better than I imagined. I spent dozens of hours preparing FOUR different talks as they requested. I spent weeks prior to the trip imagining myself on stage, comfortable & confident, and it worked!
Now, as I write and re-write my DMP (definite major purpose) with dates and feelings I SHOULD believe that it’s going to happen. I’ve done it before, right? But then resignation reared it’s ugly head! In fact a couple of days ago I was actually feeling really shitty and kinda pissed off. I let resignation get the best of me. What the hell?
So I talk with a friend who ‘gets it’ and I turn it over to God. (That always seems to be a smart thing to do). And I keep doing the work. And I believe. And I trust in the process. And I am grateful for my teachers. And I ‘Let my Light Shine’.
Can I really do it all? That’s what’s going through my head right now. All the reading, writing and re-writing my DMP (Definite Major Purpose), writing a weekly BLOG, posting on Twitter (I still don’t get the point of Twitter so I’ve only posted once), two weekly webinars, weekly CHORES, and Tweetdeck…really? I’m sure that I’m spending much more time then I’m should be on our homework. It does seem like a lot though!
What I’m noticing is that, once again, I’m using a personal growth program to keep me from doing what I need to do to expand my business. It’s just another form of RESISTANCE. Damn it. I’m taking on this program 100% and I haven’t skipped a thing (except tweeting). I’m pretty proud of myself for that because it’s not my usual modus operandi. In the past, I have to admit, that I’ve done programs kind of half assed. Then I’m disappointed that I didn’t get the results I wanted…duh! It’s because at some point I get confronted by something that pushes me out of my ‘comfort zone’ and I don’t do it. Well, I’m not willing to do that with this program. But I find that I’m letting some things go and that’s getting to me. So…if it isn’t written, it isn’t true, right?
Here’s that scheduling thing again. “I don’t want to be a slave to my calendar”. That’s ridiculous! I am already a slave to my habits and not keeping to a schedule is a BAD habit that’s certainly NOT working. So I’ll do it. I’ll replace that bad habit with the good habit of scheduling it all and keep to my schedule. Big time RESISTANCE. But I’m trusting and believing that this is all going to work out. The Master Key is fascinating to me. I can’t believe that I never knew about it. And the Greatest Salesman is putting new thoughts into my subconscious. I am truly excited!
A few days ago, my grandson, asked me what I was reading and why I was reading out loud. I explained that papa and I need to change our thinking. There are things in life that we want to do and achieve and our current level of thinking isn’t cutting it. So I read the same chapter in this book three times a day, every day for 30 days and out loud before I go to sleep. He said, looking at me like I must have said that wrong, “the same chapter for 30 days?” YEP! Sounds crazy doesn’t it? But I think it’s gonna take a little crazy to snap me out of this mediocrity I’ve been willing to live with. (Actually my life is already pretty amazing but, like I said, it’s time to take it to the next more amazing level.) Onward!